disjunct. odds. ends.

[aftertherockets]

I feel like I'm at such loose ends lately. So many loose ends just flailing about.

I've watched the snow fall from my window, watched it cover the ground as the sun came up, as it turned from black to grey to blue to white. I saw thousands of footprints, betraying every step of every person who came by, no longer allowing their travels to remain invisible.

Somehow, it became April. Soon I will be old, soon I will die.

I'm rereading The Blind Assassin, because I love it so, and because I couldn't stomach The Waves. It's a lovely book. You should read it, especially if you are a writer.

I don't like being alone, but lately I'm having trouble with people. A disconnect. Nervous hands, fluttering voice. I want to embrace everyone I see while simultaneously running, fleeing, driving far away. I could leave, but I'll just stay.

Anti-feminists really bug me, especially when they're female, and I've been hearing and seeing a lot of them around me lately. How can you be a woman in today's society and not be a feminist? It's too late, I'm too tired to espouse any opinions right now, but maybe a post will be forthcoming.

I finished my story. I hate the ending. It's ridiculous and comes out of no where and then just ends abruptly. Maybe I'll just tell everyone that isn't the ending, but I don't know where to go yet. Or maybe I just won't show up for class for the rest of the semester and then they can't ever workshop it. Also, my characters are flat and boring, the storyline is boring and no one will care about it, and I don't even have any good description to make up for any of its problems. Writing is too stressful.

I should take a shower, clear my mind, go to bed. I need to get out of here. Out of Westminster, out of Maryland, out of my current life. If only for just a little while.

Comments

[loudreality.livejournal.com]

allow me to clarify
I'm all about women's power and I think women are great, and I think they should be equal to men, because well... we are equal.
what I don't agree with is the crazies who make men out to be some beast and who act like women are supreme and all-powerful and that all men are cheating, womanizing morons. Because they aren't. I also don't agree with women who blame everything wrong in their lives on the fact that they are women and therefor are treated unfairly.
I really am all about the idea behind feminism, just like I am all about spirituality. There are just people who go to extreems and that bugs me.
but whatever. agree to disagree?

also
"I've watched the snow fall from my window, watched it cover the ground as the sun came up, as it turned from black to grey to blue to white. I saw thousands of footprints, betraying every step of every person who came by, no longer allowing their travels to remain invisible."
that's very lovely and poetic. well said ;)

[bonacheeta.livejournal.com]

I'm anti-feminist. Just read my work on "What Happened to Chivalry?" Yeah, I just don't like femno-nazis. I'm all for women's rights and stuff, but the ppl that want to be just treated better than everyone else annoy me.

Matt's ex was a feminist, so she didn't believe in shaving or deoderant. She thought it was the female opressing society that made women do such things as shave and smell good.... I hope you get my point.
Some of us shave to not look gross, some of us use deoderant to not smell like ass... not because we feel opressed by men.

And what happened to chivalry? Women's equal rights movement, that's what. No more knights on white horses for us. We gonna have to get our own damn horses.

[saava.livejournal.com]

Anti-feminists really bug me, especially when they're female, and I've been hearing and seeing a lot of them around me lately. How can you be a woman in today's society and not be a feminist? It's too late, I'm too tired to espouse any opinions right now, but maybe a post will be forthcoming.

I'd really like to read that post.

Because, yeah, anti-feminists bother me, too. (And oh my god, the term "femi-nazi"? Makes me see red. To even compare feminists to Nazis shows such a great amount of ignorance that it boggles the mind.)

I hate that women can be so vile towards each other. There's an almost prevailing attitude that being a feminist is somehow "wrong." And I hear women all.the.time saying stuff like, "I can't stand other women! They're all bitches!"

Just... gah.

[butterscotch711.livejournal.com]

'Anti-feminist' can sometimes mean wanting to step back from feminist discourses as they function currently, like how 'anti-Macintosh' is actually a theory about how PC's could function in a fundamentally different way, and has nothing to do with worshipping Bill Gates.

I know that's not what you're talking about, but sometimes people who wear the 'anti-feminist' label are actually feminists who have particular criticisms of some aspects of feminism - a lot of the time these criticisms are that it has become limited, narrow-minded, dogmatic etc.

feminists rawk \m/

[(Anonymous)]

feminists rule me. susan b anthony rocked. that made for tv movie on the women's suffrage movement starring hilary swank rocked. but wouldnt it just be easy if people were trans-sexual and colored some shade of purple? you may now bow to me as the piercing brilliance of my insight blinds you like the setting sun while you are driving. =)

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[(Anonymous)]

i was incredibly bored when making that last post. which is why i am reading your post =) bonnie is a butt and sadly, my last message was not sarcastic and i actually like feminists, even the "femi-nazi". i like arguing. also i was notified that trans-gender may be more appropriate than trans-sexual so i recind my previous term in light of the PC climate we must all be aware of in this ridiculous day and age of the patriot act.

~fin~

"Only a fool looks for logic in the chambers of the human heart."

[bonacheeta.livejournal.com]

I enjoy my freedoms as a woman, but I just feel feminist is a bit of a strong word. If anything, I am an equal rights advocate.

Think about it... Women got the right to vote before blacks. I think we are being a bit selfish in our desire to be equal just as women, so I don't want to single myself out as a single activist. I'm not even an activist. I don't believe in tearing down rainforests, but I don't go walking around with signs saying "Save the rainforest." I think of feminists as those ppl always talking about women's rights and that annoys me just as much as Christians trying to "save" me.

Maybe I am a feminist for just the plain fact of believing in women's rights.

Femno-nazi is a perfect term for those people who are looking to be better than everyone else. Isn't that the point of nazi-ism? I think I am perfectly intelligent enough to make the connection and wish not to be directly attacked for my use of terms. I am not saying that all feminists are femno-nazis.

I like to be independent enough, but I also still believe in the bread-winner society. I grew up to it. I would like to have a husband that will help bring in an income, and I have the choice to work myself to help out. Or I can have kids, which is a big IF cuz I hate kids. I'll stay home and take care of the cats. I still believe in chivalry, and obvioulsy not being beaten by my significant other. But along with feminism came the independence, and out with the chilvary.

Heather should know from some of her readings how much more romantic guys were towards women back in the day. Today we're lucky if our romantic guys take us out to McDonalds. Just 50 years ago there was more chivalry than today! Bah, I say.

[alisatank.livejournal.com]

i just wanted to say... if you write like the first couple paragraphs of this post, i think you are a beautiful writer :)