you are in my blood like holy wine

[aftertherockets]

I am so very exhausted.

I've been up since forever, after barely four hours of sleep. I have a paper to finish and I'm contemplating not doing it yet again so I can get some sleep.

But today was one of those productive days, and those don't happen often with me anymore. I had my interview this morning, and I don't think it went very well, and that bummed me out for awhile. Until, that is, I talked to my boss in admissions and she told me that they desperately need trained tourguides for the summer, and that they can provide housing if I need it. She left me a message saying that I basically have the job, I just need to work out my schedule with them. So yay! I don't have to go home this summer! This also means that I can work another couple of jobs, or try for an internship at MPT or somewhere in Baltimore. I was hesitant to apply before, cause I didn't know if I'd be here.

I also had a nice conversation with Becky today about my paper for her class and about summer employment, she knows some people who may need my help if I'm going to be around. We also talked about how much I love The Blind Assassin, and so in class I actually raised my hand and participated in discussion! That's happened, like, once the entire semester. But I love this book oh so very much, and I've had a few months to let it marinate in my brain, so I already have opinions formed that I can talk about in class. So that made me happy.

Then, I went to the president's house for dinner. I was actually on time, which made me early and awkward. There were barely any students there, and only one I knew and liked, one I knew and I can't stand to be around--she's one of those people who invades your personal space and just generally makes you uncomfortable whenever she walks into a room. I spent most of the night talking to Dr. Mary and her husband, because I love Dr. Mary and she apparently loves me. She introduced me to lots of people, and generally kept an eye on me, which was nice. My advisor was there, as were a ton of other professors in the English dept., and I actually talked to her a little bit about my senior seminar and my plans for after graduation. She somehow managed to ease my mind about it a bit. I have so many possibilities, I just have to choose which one to go with now.

I have to say, though, it was strange to be in a room full of my professors, schmoozing and drinking wine with them. It was almost surreal, like I was a grown-up, but not. Cause then one of the ladies who was in charge of the evening pulled me and the uncomfortable girl aside and asked if we'd hand out programs at the lecture that was after the dinner--because "they like to see the kids at these things." She tried to qualify it and call us students or adults or something, but yeah. It's funny, that no matter how old I get, someone is there to call me a kid. I may not know enough about the "real world" to fit her definition of an adult, but I'm certainly not a kid anymore. I haven't been for a long, long time.

Then it was a new Angel ep and talking to my dad and my grandmother. Fun times, those. Well, just the Angel episode, not so much the talking to relatives. My dad has to go to court on Friday and may or may not... be able to talk to me for ten months, and my grandmother berated me for twenty minutes on all of my mother's problems. I was close to tears, she didn't notice, because she kept going on about how my mom doesn't care about her and has all these problems that she should be taking care of and blahblahblah, and when I dared to suggest that she talk to my mom or try to help her, because I'm certainly not in a position to do so, she just got kind of huffy and changed the subject. Lovely woman, my grandmother.

Sigh.

I'm still exhausted, so I should either go do my homework or get some sleep. I can't keep doing this thing where I stay up all night and get up early. It's not good for the functioning throughout the day thing. :P

Comments

[roxyoi301.livejournal.com]

oh! you should so try to come to this seminar thingy Slade is having on high definition Television. i know it's a monday at 6 in peterson. i think it's the 26th, but i'll double check and tell you. There are guys from MPT coming to demonstrate who Slade says are always looking for interns. i was thinking of applying for an internship too, but i didn't know if i would do it this summer or next spring.

[evergleam83.livejournal.com]

Coolness. Yeah, let me know, I'd like to go. I don't know if I'd rather try for this summer or next fall, either.

[emulsion-lift.livejournal.com]

i'm offering an internship, and uhhhh yeah, it's in Peterson too. ;)

it's called Dealing With Messy Relationships Through Musical Therapy: An Introductory Course.

i think you might actually be signed up already, so i'll get you that syllabus as soon as possible.

:D

[evergleam83.livejournal.com]

Hee.

As long as I we don't have any papers, I'm cool. I have a thing with not being able to get my papers done on time lately. :P

Cuteness.